Coming around: one woman's vibrator journey

I started writing this as an excuse to post a GIF of Natalie Portman masturbating in Black Swan, but it became so much more.

The first time I ever came was a total surprise/accident, like when you take a big swig of water but it turns out to be vodka (except the good version of that).

I’m not sure how old I was at the time, but I did not know orgasms existed or that you could conjure them yourself through masturbation, which I also didn’t know existed.

I was very scrawny grow…